“You see, Gerald, you see, it wasn’t just that… that… it wasn’t just that you were BLIND, you see. You see, it was worse than that Gerald… far, FAR, worse, you see. It wasn’t even an INTENSIVE or OVERRIDING… overriding, blindness, Gerald. Jesus CHRIST it was so much MORE than that… so much more…. You see, blindness… blindness, you see, is a complete—a COMPLETE, Gerald—lack of sight, right? Right? Right. Right-right-right So INTENSIVE, OVERRIDING blindness… it’s-it’s-it’s-it’s not any different from simple… simple BLINDNESS, is it? Is it Gerald? But it is, I suppose—a-a-a-a-a PERSON can be b-b-b-blind, I suppose, and still see, see SHAPES and such… SHAPES, Gerald, and-and-C-C-C-COLORS, maybe? Black, white, gray… a-bit-a-bit-a-bit-A-BIT of BLUE, perhaps, maybe, Gerald… oh dammit Gerald, even if you had this-this-this OVERRIDING blindness, you see, a COMPLETE lack of sight-sight-sight NOTHING AT ALL GERALD! Even-even-even if you had, you had, THAT, you see, then-then-then things might, might, MIGHT have been, have been, different. Maybe maybe maybe MAYBE you’d-you’d-you’d be reDEEMable, redeemable, Gerald. Redeemable. But you didn’t have that, you see, you didn’t no no No No NO YOU DIDN’T… no you didn’t… no you don’t, no you don’t… you don’t. NO! You have something-something-something else, Gerald, something BEYOND, beyond, mere blindness BLINDNESS Gerald… something… worse, worse, worse. It’s-it’s-it’s-it’s like you SEE reality, you see, you SEE reality, Gerald, you SEE it just fine, you see, but something-something-something CHANGES, it CHANGES, Gerald, somewhere between y-y-y-your eye and-and-and-and YOUR BRAIN, Gerald, something… something… along the fucking optic NERVE, Gerald, a TWIST, a twist, you see, a twist, a twist…. It’s twisting and twisting and you’re twisted you’re twisted and the TRUTH, Gerald, the REALITY… it’s not that you’re not SEEING it DAMMIT! It’s that-that-that-that it’s THAT you’re not SEEING IT, you see, at ALL, not-at-ALL, Gerald, but so much worse so much worse because you are YOU ARE seeing it and you’re not, at the same time, you see, at the same time the truth it MELTS on its little journey along-along-along your optic nerve, MELTS into a million billion trillion tiny pieces and re-re-re-re-REFORMS, you see, reFORMS, Gerald, into something-something-something ELSE, to a-a-a-a-a LIE CHRIST… into a LIE, Gerald, it ch-ch-ch-changes in your MIND into something STRANGE, something else, something you-you-you WANT, you see, something YOU want…
Not what is, Gerald, not what-what-what IS.
You just see what you you YOU want, what you WANT, to see, you see, Gerald.
Do you see? Do you see? It’s-it’s-it’s-it’s BEYOND, blindness, BEYOND… I can’t even-even-even TELL, you see, I can’t even TELL if you see, if you see the truth in the first place, in the first place, Gerald, in the first place. It’s like, it’s like, it’s LIKE YOU SEE and you DON’T, you see, you see and you DON’T see, at the same time, you see.
I-think-I-think-I-think that’s WORSE, Gerald, that’s WORSE than blindness. It’s so much-Much-MUCH WORSE, Gerald.
You see, you don’t see… but nor-nor-nor are you BLIND, Gerald, you’re not blind you’re not blind you’re not you’re NOT, you see.
You’re deluded. You’re stuck-stuck-stuck in what you want. But reality doesn’t, it doesn’t CHANGE, like that, GERALD, it doesn’t CHANGE like that just because-because-because YOU want it to. It doesn’t. It doesn’t.
And it will kill-kill-kill-KILL YOU CHRIST! It will kill you, you see, it will kill you it will kill you, Gerald, it will kill you it will kill you…”